I've come to realize how badly I need to relocate. I need to start over, somewhere new, a fresh start. I need to get out of West Virginia for more than a few days at a time, and I'm planning on it.

I have family down in North Carolina that's helping me out as best as they can. I don't expect them to bend over backwards or anything, they have their own lives and such, but I could use all the help in the world right now, lol. I've never moved out of state, and I'm car-less, so the job/apartment/transportation aspect is less than desireable at the moment, but I'm sure everything will work out.

I'm really afriad of getting "stuck" though. I've felt stuck in WV for years, I'm smothering and suffocating. I've noticed that I tend to relocate every two years or so, I just get so restless, I have to move around. And even though this is the closest thing to an "adventure" I've had since I moved to Huntington, I still don't want to get stuck in NC, but better there than here I suppose. At least NC has my open-minded libral relatives and better school systems and more opportunities.

What I'd really like to do is just be a traveler, a nomad. Sell all the crap I don't need and just let the wind take me. Have one of those RV families, maybe even globe trot. But at this point I'd need a partner, a vehicle, and a way to fund our traveling to do something like that.

This isn't a recent feeling though, I've always been that way. I remember when I was in grade school, my mother stayed in NC for a few days, maybe a week. She told me she was looking for a job so we could all move down there, to Winston-Salem. I was SOO excited. When she came back I asked "When are we moving? Can I start packing?"

She said "We're not going. The job I did find laid me off. They said they didn't need me. We're staying here."

I cried. I wanted to move so badly. "Well go back, somone will need you. We can still move."

And I know as soon as we moved there I'd want to move again later. I like moving and traveling, riding in a vehicle, staring out the window, getting lost. I could live on a train like a hobo if it were sanitary, lol.

Sorry for rambling, but you get it. I'm hoping to move sometime this fall, to Raleigh, North Carolina. I'm nervous and excited. Any advice?

Love,

Ches